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Twelfth Night
A little late (in UK time, anyway), but here it is. The last entry in the mistletoe challenge (so, no pressure then...)
Life hasn't been very cooperative this last couple of weeks so I'm afraid this isn't the story I was originally intending to post (that one's still not finished, but at least I've got a head start for next year *g*). This one's shorter, a lot fluffier and still a little rough around the edges, for which I apologise, but I hope it'll at least provide a few moments' distraction from taking down the decorations.
Thank you again to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
byslantedlight and empty_mirrors for creating the challenge and to everyone who's contributed. I don't know what I'll do with myself now I don't have a new entry to look forward to every morning...
So, without further ado:
Flowers in the snow
“Dead?”
Doyle stood arrested, the teaspoon in his hand poised halfway between coffee jar and mug. Stray granules sprinkled the work-top unnoticed.
“As a door nail.”
Doyle said nothing, lifting his eyes to the dingy panorama of chimney pots and TV aerials outside the window. Last night’s snow was already melting from the rooftops. Dead…
Bodie reached across to relieve him of the forgotten spoon and finish ladling coffee into both their mugs. “In his sleep, apparently. Heart attack or something. He was stone cold when Sal went down to check on him this morning.” His fingers brushed Doyle’s wrist. “Sorry, mate. I did say you weren’t going to like it.”
“No.” Doyle shook his head. “No, no way. ’S gotta be a mistake. It’s just not... Months, we’ve...” He turned to stare wide-eyed at Bodie. Please tell me this is one of your awful wind-ups. “He can’t be.”
“’Fraid he can, sunshine.” Bodie’s eyes were sympathetic but wary, waiting, Doyle thought with distant amusement, to see which way he’d jump. “The FME confirmed it officially an hour ago. Paulson is very definitely deceased. He has kicked the bucket, shuffled off his mortal coil, run down the curtain. He is an ex –”
Anger swept away the last of Doyle’s stunned inertia. For god’s sake, Bodie. Everything’s a bloody joke to you, isn’t it?
“You think it’s funny, do you?”
“No,” Bodie said with careful patience, “I think it’s frustrating as hell, but there’s no point –”
“Oh, right,” Doyle sneered, “Here we go...”
Bodie’s eyes flashed a warning. “Don’t start, Doyle. Yeah, it’s a pisser, but you have to – ”
“No.” Doyle’s finger jabbed the air for emphasis. “No, I don’t, mate. So just... Shut up, all right; I don’t wanna hear it.”
He turned his back, fighting to contain the shuddering rage building in him at the sheer monstrous unfairness of it all. The waste. Months of painstaking, arduous, dangerous work; a violent, bloody conclusion that had landed two good men in hospital, and none of it worth a damn without Paulson’s testimony. How many more lives would be ruined, how many innocents used and discarded before fate handed them another opportunity like this?
The last six months of their lives had just gone up in smoke. Did Bodie honestly think he could snap Doyle out of it with a shot of black humour and a few tired platitudes about perspective?
Doyle needed badly to move, to get away. He shoved past Bodie, wrenched open the door and started down the corridor with long, angry strides. Hearing voices on the next landing and in no mood to be civil to anyone unlucky enough to cross his path, he swerved aside from the stairs, punched in the code to bypass the alarm and took the emergency exit out onto the fire escape instead. As the door swung to behind him, he braced his arms on the railing, and drew in deep, ragged lungfuls of crisp winter air. He wanted to hit something, beat someone – preferably Paulson – to a bloody pulp. Instead, he concentrated on slowing his breathing, calming his pounding heart. Come on, Doyle, and it was Bodie’s voice speaking inside his head, Get a grip.
There was a grey Transit parked down below, its decorously tinted windows and ‘Private Ambulance’ markings a blunt announcement of its calling to anyone as familiar with the trappings of death as Doyle. Six months of blood, sweat and sleepless nights to bring him in, and only a few hours later, Paulson was leaving by the back door, an anonymous corpse in an anonymous metal box. Doyle watched the men from the mortuary manoeuvre the trolley into the van and sign for the body before driving off. And that was that. One more operation down the drain, and nothing left to show for it but some tyre tracks in the slush.
He sighed, wondering why he still felt ambushed every time it happened. You’d think he might have learned better by now. Because that was life all over, wasn’t it? Built you up then, just when you thought you’d finally found your feet, it whipped them right back out from under you again. Always the same. He was sure he could remember a time when they’d come out on top more often than they’d lost, but these days it felt like they were barely breaking even. Too many ops ending in failure, too many deaths, too many betrayals and too many bastards like Paulson slipping through the net. Sometimes he felt about a hundred years old.
Doyle clenched his fists. He had really wanted this one. Wanted the names Paulson would have given them, and wanted the satisfaction of seeing Paulson himself destroyed – his sordid little empire scattered and his precious reputation in ruins. Doyle had no doubt they’d have got him to talk. He was the worst kind of bully; all brag and bounce on the surface but nothing to back it up with once you got him alone. He’d already been sweating when they brought him in. A night in the cells to think it over and a day of their undivided attention down in the basement and they’d have cracked him easily. He would have been going down for a very, very long time. But, no, he’d had the last laugh in the end, hadn’t he? Got clean away and left them with nothing.
Doyle aimed a savage, futile kick at the metal in front of him.
Bastard.
A loose clump of thawing snow dislodged itself from the overhang above him and landed in his hair, melting as it slid coldly down his neck. He shivered, hunching his shoulders, aware for the first time that it was bloody freezing out here. Pity he hadn’t thought to grab his coat before storming out. He looked up at the greenish pallor of the sky. More snow to come before the day was over by the looks of it. Perfect. The weather was mirroring his mood and it felt like a vindication. Bodie had come up with some fancy poetic name for that once. It had made them laugh at the time. He could do with a laugh – shame he couldn’t for the life of him remember what Bodie had said.
A couple of the B Squad lads emerged from the same door Paulson had been despatched through moments earlier. As Doyle watched, the blond one – Carter? No, Carson – dropped a few steps behind the other, scooped up a handful of snow from a window sill and lobbed it at his mate, who swore and leapt at him. There was a scuffle and then Carson broke away, crossing the car park at a reckless slithering run, pursued by a barrage of snowballs, thrown with more enthusiasm than accuracy by his laughing colleague.
Doyle smiled, distracted, remembering last night.
They’d wanted to keep their heads clear for the morning’s interrogation, so they’d made their excuses early, leaving the boozy post-op celebration to carry on without them. It had looked like turning into quite a party. Even Cowley had made a brief appearance and stood the team a round in recognition of a difficult job well done. Afterwards, Bodie had bought them dinner at the little Italian place they’d adopted as their local, and they’d come out onto the street at the end of their meal to find themselves in another world. The scruffy little mews was transformed under a pristine bloom of white, and heavy flakes were still swirling down in a slow, hypnotic dance. The night was hushed with the expectant silence that graces a new fall of snow, and the cold and the lateness of the hour had driven almost everyone indoors, leaving them alone in their own private wonderland. It had been magical.
Bodie, the big kid, had said they should walk home, make the most of the snow before it was spoiled by traffic and too many feet. They had been tired, though, and they’d needed the car for the morning, so in the end they’d driven back after all. But Doyle had stayed over, which they both knew was what Bodie had really been after all along. And when they’d left for work before dawn, Doyle had scraped a great wodge of snow off the bonnet of the Capri and stuffed it down the back of Bodie’s parka, initiating a glorious battle that had left them soggy, dishevelled and helpless with laughter. They'd had to waste another ten minutes changing into dry clothes before breaking the speed limit all the way to HQ, through slippery but, fortunately, still largely deserted streets.
Great night. Lousy morning. One step forward, two steps back. That was the way it went these days. There were times he honestly wondered if all this had really been worth coming back from the dead for.
Doyle shivered again. It really was very cold out here. He was going to have to swallow his pride and go back indoors in a minute or risk hypothermia.
Someone had wired a window-box to the railing where he was leaning. A couple of scrawny miniature roses with no sense of timing were drooping under the weight of last night’s snow. Didn’t they realise it was the middle of winter? Daft place to try growing flowers anyway – another waste. They’d be in the shadow of the building for most of the day, and who’d ever see them except the occasional secretary sneaking out for a crafty smoke – or agent taking refuge from his partner’s ill-timed sense of humour.
Right on cue, the door mechanism buzzed as the catch was released from the inside. Doyle didn’t bother to look round. Only one person it could be.
“Brought your coat,” Bodie said, as he draped it around Doyle’s shoulders.
Doyle grunted his thanks and Bodie settled beside him, their elbows resting side by side on the railing as they stared out over the car park. In the office building opposite, someone with his back to the window was gesturing at a flip-chart. Doyle wondered briefly what it would be like to have a nine-to-five job in an office like that. Somewhere where the biggest risk was sending your shiny new product to market too soon and the biggest frustration a blip in the quarterly sales figures.
It was like trying to imagine himself on a different planet.
“They sure it was natural causes?”
Bodie shrugged. “Sure as they can be. They’ll know more after the PM.”
“Think there’ll be an investigation?”
“Death in custody? And a big shot like Paulson? Have to be, I should think. They won’t be able to pin this one on us, though.”
“Much as they’d like to.”
An amused snort from Bodie. “Right.”
Paulson had contacts. The lawyer he’d been shouting for last night belonged to one of the City’s leading firms. Doyle sighed at the prospect of another day spent kicking their heels in the coroner’s court. He and Bodie would inevitably be called as witnesses. More paperwork, more frustration. He’d thought he was putting all that behind him when he left the Met. Still, and his stomach tightened even at the memory, he’d take the witness stand over the dock any day of the week.
He sensed Bodie darting a look at him and smothered a smile. Trying to decide if the thaw was here to stay? Well, perhaps it was. It took too much energy to remain angry with Bodie for long. Besides... Don’t shoot the messenger. It wasn’t Bodie’s fault Paulson was dead. Or that Cowley had seen fit to land him with breaking the news to Doyle.
“Pretty flowers,” said Bodie.
“Eh?”
Bodie was pointing at the roses. “Them. Brave, aren’t they? Dead of winter, real brass monkey weather, and there they are still blooming away. Wonder who planted them.”
“Dunno. One of the girls from the typing pool, probably. And that’s not brave, that’s stupid. Next heavy frost they’ll have had it. Should’ve learned to keep their heads down.”
Bodie nudged him with a shoulder. “Nah, they’re tougher than they look. They may droop a bit, but they’ll dig their little roots in under there and pop back up in the spring, good as new. You’ll see.”
Doyle’s fading irritation surged back to life. What did Bodie think this was? Bloody ‘Thought for the Day’? And Doyle was no sodding rose.
“Thank you, Pollyanna. God, what is it with you, Bodie? The glass is always half full for you, isn’t it?”
“Only because my best mate’s too mean to buy me the other half.”
Doyle’s lip gave an involuntary twitch at that and Bodie leapt on it.
“There. Now stop being a miserable git and come on down the pub and drown your sorrows with the rest of us, eh?”
“I’m not in the mood, Bodie. You go.”
“Yeah, well maybe this isn’t all about how you feel. You’re not the only one gutted by this you know.”
“It was my op, my contacts. I’ve wanted this one for years.”
“I know.”
“We did everything right!”
“I know.”
“So how come it always ends up like this?”
Bodie raised an eyebrow. “Always?”
"Kroll,” Doyle marked them off on his fingers, “Herzl.” He turned an ironic stare on Bodie. “Coogan. Want me to go on?”
“Oh, for – Manton, all right? Sangster. Rahad.” Bodie’s eyes hardened. “Piet Van bloody Niekerk. Want some more?”
Doyle shifted irritably. “Yeah, all right. All right. Not always, but… How do you do it, Bodie? How do you stop it getting to you?”
Bodie sighed. “Believe it or not, I count my blessings.”
“Your –” Doyle looked up into Bodie’s face, and understood. “Oh.”
“Yeah.”
Doyle shook his head and his mouth quirked into a rueful answering smile. “I don’t deserve you, do I?”
“Oh, I dunno.” Bodie’s hand came down warmly on his and stayed there. “You pay your way on the whole. Seriously, though, Ray. Some you lose, yeah. That’s the way it is. But let the losing get to you and you’re finished. That’s bad medicine, that is. You have to put it behind you and concentrate on the next battle, because it’s the only one you can win.”
“Sushai?”
“Hereward the Wake. 1957 Christmas annual. Read it till it fell apart.”
“Idiot. Had a bit of a thing for men in tights, did you?”
“Tights, no. Tight jeans,” his free hand traced the curve of Doyle’s denim-clad buttock appreciatively, “definitely.”
Reluctant to spoil the newly tranquil mood, Doyle allowed the liberty for a few seconds longer before planting an admonitory elbow in Bodie’s ribs. “All right, that’s enough. Against the rules, that is. Knock it off.”
“Ow. Brute. Feel better now, though, don’t you?”
Doyle thought about it. He was still disappointed of course, still angry, but...
“Yes. Yes, you smug bastard, actually I do.”
“Thought so,” said Bodie with satisfaction. “Could have sorted you out in no time if we’d been at home, you know. It’s all this ‘hands off at work’ nonsense that throws me. Don’t know what to say to you sometimes when you get like this.”
“I know. Sorry.”
Bodie ruffled his hair. “Apology accepted.”
There was a pause while they looked at each other, and Doyle found himself wanting to smile again. It was nice to be reminded once in a while that not everything in his life was doomed to failure.
“I’d like to kiss you now,” Bodie said. “But, since that’s out of the question, you can take me to the pub instead and buy me that other half you were on about.”
Doyle grinned, loving him very much. “You’re on.”
Bodie started down the steps. Doyle went to follow, then hesitated and turned back.
“Hang on a sec.” He leaned over the window-box and gently brushed the snow from delicate frost-stiffened petals. “Give the poor buggers a fighting chance, eh?”
“That’s the spirit. Oh, Doyle?”
He looked up. “Yeah?”
The snowball caught him full in the face.
Title: Flowers in the Snow
Author: Elizabeth O'Shea
Slash or Gen: Slash
Archive Proslib/Circuit/Hatstand: Yes
Disclaimer: Usual
Notes: Heartfelt thanks, as ever, to PFL for saving my sanity several times over
Life hasn't been very cooperative this last couple of weeks so I'm afraid this isn't the story I was originally intending to post (that one's still not finished, but at least I've got a head start for next year *g*). This one's shorter, a lot fluffier and still a little rough around the edges, for which I apologise, but I hope it'll at least provide a few moments' distraction from taking down the decorations.
Thank you again to
byslantedlight and empty_mirrors for creating the challenge and to everyone who's contributed. I don't know what I'll do with myself now I don't have a new entry to look forward to every morning... So, without further ado:
“Dead?”
Doyle stood arrested, the teaspoon in his hand poised halfway between coffee jar and mug. Stray granules sprinkled the work-top unnoticed.
“As a door nail.”
Doyle said nothing, lifting his eyes to the dingy panorama of chimney pots and TV aerials outside the window. Last night’s snow was already melting from the rooftops. Dead…
Bodie reached across to relieve him of the forgotten spoon and finish ladling coffee into both their mugs. “In his sleep, apparently. Heart attack or something. He was stone cold when Sal went down to check on him this morning.” His fingers brushed Doyle’s wrist. “Sorry, mate. I did say you weren’t going to like it.”
“No.” Doyle shook his head. “No, no way. ’S gotta be a mistake. It’s just not... Months, we’ve...” He turned to stare wide-eyed at Bodie. Please tell me this is one of your awful wind-ups. “He can’t be.”
“’Fraid he can, sunshine.” Bodie’s eyes were sympathetic but wary, waiting, Doyle thought with distant amusement, to see which way he’d jump. “The FME confirmed it officially an hour ago. Paulson is very definitely deceased. He has kicked the bucket, shuffled off his mortal coil, run down the curtain. He is an ex –”
Anger swept away the last of Doyle’s stunned inertia. For god’s sake, Bodie. Everything’s a bloody joke to you, isn’t it?
“You think it’s funny, do you?”
“No,” Bodie said with careful patience, “I think it’s frustrating as hell, but there’s no point –”
“Oh, right,” Doyle sneered, “Here we go...”
Bodie’s eyes flashed a warning. “Don’t start, Doyle. Yeah, it’s a pisser, but you have to – ”
“No.” Doyle’s finger jabbed the air for emphasis. “No, I don’t, mate. So just... Shut up, all right; I don’t wanna hear it.”
He turned his back, fighting to contain the shuddering rage building in him at the sheer monstrous unfairness of it all. The waste. Months of painstaking, arduous, dangerous work; a violent, bloody conclusion that had landed two good men in hospital, and none of it worth a damn without Paulson’s testimony. How many more lives would be ruined, how many innocents used and discarded before fate handed them another opportunity like this?
The last six months of their lives had just gone up in smoke. Did Bodie honestly think he could snap Doyle out of it with a shot of black humour and a few tired platitudes about perspective?
Doyle needed badly to move, to get away. He shoved past Bodie, wrenched open the door and started down the corridor with long, angry strides. Hearing voices on the next landing and in no mood to be civil to anyone unlucky enough to cross his path, he swerved aside from the stairs, punched in the code to bypass the alarm and took the emergency exit out onto the fire escape instead. As the door swung to behind him, he braced his arms on the railing, and drew in deep, ragged lungfuls of crisp winter air. He wanted to hit something, beat someone – preferably Paulson – to a bloody pulp. Instead, he concentrated on slowing his breathing, calming his pounding heart. Come on, Doyle, and it was Bodie’s voice speaking inside his head, Get a grip.
There was a grey Transit parked down below, its decorously tinted windows and ‘Private Ambulance’ markings a blunt announcement of its calling to anyone as familiar with the trappings of death as Doyle. Six months of blood, sweat and sleepless nights to bring him in, and only a few hours later, Paulson was leaving by the back door, an anonymous corpse in an anonymous metal box. Doyle watched the men from the mortuary manoeuvre the trolley into the van and sign for the body before driving off. And that was that. One more operation down the drain, and nothing left to show for it but some tyre tracks in the slush.
He sighed, wondering why he still felt ambushed every time it happened. You’d think he might have learned better by now. Because that was life all over, wasn’t it? Built you up then, just when you thought you’d finally found your feet, it whipped them right back out from under you again. Always the same. He was sure he could remember a time when they’d come out on top more often than they’d lost, but these days it felt like they were barely breaking even. Too many ops ending in failure, too many deaths, too many betrayals and too many bastards like Paulson slipping through the net. Sometimes he felt about a hundred years old.
Doyle clenched his fists. He had really wanted this one. Wanted the names Paulson would have given them, and wanted the satisfaction of seeing Paulson himself destroyed – his sordid little empire scattered and his precious reputation in ruins. Doyle had no doubt they’d have got him to talk. He was the worst kind of bully; all brag and bounce on the surface but nothing to back it up with once you got him alone. He’d already been sweating when they brought him in. A night in the cells to think it over and a day of their undivided attention down in the basement and they’d have cracked him easily. He would have been going down for a very, very long time. But, no, he’d had the last laugh in the end, hadn’t he? Got clean away and left them with nothing.
Doyle aimed a savage, futile kick at the metal in front of him.
Bastard.
A loose clump of thawing snow dislodged itself from the overhang above him and landed in his hair, melting as it slid coldly down his neck. He shivered, hunching his shoulders, aware for the first time that it was bloody freezing out here. Pity he hadn’t thought to grab his coat before storming out. He looked up at the greenish pallor of the sky. More snow to come before the day was over by the looks of it. Perfect. The weather was mirroring his mood and it felt like a vindication. Bodie had come up with some fancy poetic name for that once. It had made them laugh at the time. He could do with a laugh – shame he couldn’t for the life of him remember what Bodie had said.
A couple of the B Squad lads emerged from the same door Paulson had been despatched through moments earlier. As Doyle watched, the blond one – Carter? No, Carson – dropped a few steps behind the other, scooped up a handful of snow from a window sill and lobbed it at his mate, who swore and leapt at him. There was a scuffle and then Carson broke away, crossing the car park at a reckless slithering run, pursued by a barrage of snowballs, thrown with more enthusiasm than accuracy by his laughing colleague.
Doyle smiled, distracted, remembering last night.
They’d wanted to keep their heads clear for the morning’s interrogation, so they’d made their excuses early, leaving the boozy post-op celebration to carry on without them. It had looked like turning into quite a party. Even Cowley had made a brief appearance and stood the team a round in recognition of a difficult job well done. Afterwards, Bodie had bought them dinner at the little Italian place they’d adopted as their local, and they’d come out onto the street at the end of their meal to find themselves in another world. The scruffy little mews was transformed under a pristine bloom of white, and heavy flakes were still swirling down in a slow, hypnotic dance. The night was hushed with the expectant silence that graces a new fall of snow, and the cold and the lateness of the hour had driven almost everyone indoors, leaving them alone in their own private wonderland. It had been magical.
Bodie, the big kid, had said they should walk home, make the most of the snow before it was spoiled by traffic and too many feet. They had been tired, though, and they’d needed the car for the morning, so in the end they’d driven back after all. But Doyle had stayed over, which they both knew was what Bodie had really been after all along. And when they’d left for work before dawn, Doyle had scraped a great wodge of snow off the bonnet of the Capri and stuffed it down the back of Bodie’s parka, initiating a glorious battle that had left them soggy, dishevelled and helpless with laughter. They'd had to waste another ten minutes changing into dry clothes before breaking the speed limit all the way to HQ, through slippery but, fortunately, still largely deserted streets.
Great night. Lousy morning. One step forward, two steps back. That was the way it went these days. There were times he honestly wondered if all this had really been worth coming back from the dead for.
Doyle shivered again. It really was very cold out here. He was going to have to swallow his pride and go back indoors in a minute or risk hypothermia.
Someone had wired a window-box to the railing where he was leaning. A couple of scrawny miniature roses with no sense of timing were drooping under the weight of last night’s snow. Didn’t they realise it was the middle of winter? Daft place to try growing flowers anyway – another waste. They’d be in the shadow of the building for most of the day, and who’d ever see them except the occasional secretary sneaking out for a crafty smoke – or agent taking refuge from his partner’s ill-timed sense of humour.
Right on cue, the door mechanism buzzed as the catch was released from the inside. Doyle didn’t bother to look round. Only one person it could be.
“Brought your coat,” Bodie said, as he draped it around Doyle’s shoulders.
Doyle grunted his thanks and Bodie settled beside him, their elbows resting side by side on the railing as they stared out over the car park. In the office building opposite, someone with his back to the window was gesturing at a flip-chart. Doyle wondered briefly what it would be like to have a nine-to-five job in an office like that. Somewhere where the biggest risk was sending your shiny new product to market too soon and the biggest frustration a blip in the quarterly sales figures.
It was like trying to imagine himself on a different planet.
“They sure it was natural causes?”
Bodie shrugged. “Sure as they can be. They’ll know more after the PM.”
“Think there’ll be an investigation?”
“Death in custody? And a big shot like Paulson? Have to be, I should think. They won’t be able to pin this one on us, though.”
“Much as they’d like to.”
An amused snort from Bodie. “Right.”
Paulson had contacts. The lawyer he’d been shouting for last night belonged to one of the City’s leading firms. Doyle sighed at the prospect of another day spent kicking their heels in the coroner’s court. He and Bodie would inevitably be called as witnesses. More paperwork, more frustration. He’d thought he was putting all that behind him when he left the Met. Still, and his stomach tightened even at the memory, he’d take the witness stand over the dock any day of the week.
He sensed Bodie darting a look at him and smothered a smile. Trying to decide if the thaw was here to stay? Well, perhaps it was. It took too much energy to remain angry with Bodie for long. Besides... Don’t shoot the messenger. It wasn’t Bodie’s fault Paulson was dead. Or that Cowley had seen fit to land him with breaking the news to Doyle.
“Pretty flowers,” said Bodie.
“Eh?”
Bodie was pointing at the roses. “Them. Brave, aren’t they? Dead of winter, real brass monkey weather, and there they are still blooming away. Wonder who planted them.”
“Dunno. One of the girls from the typing pool, probably. And that’s not brave, that’s stupid. Next heavy frost they’ll have had it. Should’ve learned to keep their heads down.”
Bodie nudged him with a shoulder. “Nah, they’re tougher than they look. They may droop a bit, but they’ll dig their little roots in under there and pop back up in the spring, good as new. You’ll see.”
Doyle’s fading irritation surged back to life. What did Bodie think this was? Bloody ‘Thought for the Day’? And Doyle was no sodding rose.
“Thank you, Pollyanna. God, what is it with you, Bodie? The glass is always half full for you, isn’t it?”
“Only because my best mate’s too mean to buy me the other half.”
Doyle’s lip gave an involuntary twitch at that and Bodie leapt on it.
“There. Now stop being a miserable git and come on down the pub and drown your sorrows with the rest of us, eh?”
“I’m not in the mood, Bodie. You go.”
“Yeah, well maybe this isn’t all about how you feel. You’re not the only one gutted by this you know.”
“It was my op, my contacts. I’ve wanted this one for years.”
“I know.”
“We did everything right!”
“I know.”
“So how come it always ends up like this?”
Bodie raised an eyebrow. “Always?”
"Kroll,” Doyle marked them off on his fingers, “Herzl.” He turned an ironic stare on Bodie. “Coogan. Want me to go on?”
“Oh, for – Manton, all right? Sangster. Rahad.” Bodie’s eyes hardened. “Piet Van bloody Niekerk. Want some more?”
Doyle shifted irritably. “Yeah, all right. All right. Not always, but… How do you do it, Bodie? How do you stop it getting to you?”
Bodie sighed. “Believe it or not, I count my blessings.”
“Your –” Doyle looked up into Bodie’s face, and understood. “Oh.”
“Yeah.”
Doyle shook his head and his mouth quirked into a rueful answering smile. “I don’t deserve you, do I?”
“Oh, I dunno.” Bodie’s hand came down warmly on his and stayed there. “You pay your way on the whole. Seriously, though, Ray. Some you lose, yeah. That’s the way it is. But let the losing get to you and you’re finished. That’s bad medicine, that is. You have to put it behind you and concentrate on the next battle, because it’s the only one you can win.”
“Sushai?”
“Hereward the Wake. 1957 Christmas annual. Read it till it fell apart.”
“Idiot. Had a bit of a thing for men in tights, did you?”
“Tights, no. Tight jeans,” his free hand traced the curve of Doyle’s denim-clad buttock appreciatively, “definitely.”
Reluctant to spoil the newly tranquil mood, Doyle allowed the liberty for a few seconds longer before planting an admonitory elbow in Bodie’s ribs. “All right, that’s enough. Against the rules, that is. Knock it off.”
“Ow. Brute. Feel better now, though, don’t you?”
Doyle thought about it. He was still disappointed of course, still angry, but...
“Yes. Yes, you smug bastard, actually I do.”
“Thought so,” said Bodie with satisfaction. “Could have sorted you out in no time if we’d been at home, you know. It’s all this ‘hands off at work’ nonsense that throws me. Don’t know what to say to you sometimes when you get like this.”
“I know. Sorry.”
Bodie ruffled his hair. “Apology accepted.”
There was a pause while they looked at each other, and Doyle found himself wanting to smile again. It was nice to be reminded once in a while that not everything in his life was doomed to failure.
“I’d like to kiss you now,” Bodie said. “But, since that’s out of the question, you can take me to the pub instead and buy me that other half you were on about.”
Doyle grinned, loving him very much. “You’re on.”
Bodie started down the steps. Doyle went to follow, then hesitated and turned back.
“Hang on a sec.” He leaned over the window-box and gently brushed the snow from delicate frost-stiffened petals. “Give the poor buggers a fighting chance, eh?”
“That’s the spirit. Oh, Doyle?”
He looked up. “Yeah?”
The snowball caught him full in the face.
Title: Flowers in the Snow
Author: Elizabeth O'Shea
Slash or Gen: Slash
Archive Proslib/Circuit/Hatstand: Yes
Disclaimer: Usual
Notes: Heartfelt thanks, as ever, to PFL for saving my sanity several times over
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Bodie nudged him with a shoulder. “Nah, they’re tougher than they look. They may droop a bit but they’ll dig their little roots in under there and pop back up in the spring, good as new. You’ll see.” So him.
I loved Doyle's frustration, though, at the sudden ending to all their hard work - I can understand how he feels - and yet Bodie can still manage to get him out of his sulk.
Thanks.
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What a wonderful way to end the challenge - thank you!
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Bodie nudged him with a shoulder. “Nah, they’re tougher than they look. They may droop a bit but they’ll dig their little roots in under there and pop back up in the spring, good as new. You’ll see.”
Doyle’s fading irritation surged back to life. What did Bodie think this was? Bloody ‘Thought for the Day’? And Doyle was no sodding rose.
Oh, but you are, Doyle! Lovely. All the emotion there, but beautifully understated and undercut nicely by our Doyle.
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Beautifully written and, as various people have said above, feels just as though it is part of an ep. And, even though technically, not much happens, you actually manage to tell a whole story in a lovely subtle way.
You use telling details, especially visual ones, very well. "Doyle stood arrested, the teaspoon in his hand poised halfway between coffee jar and mug. Stray granules sprinkled the worktop unnoticed." I could just see those coffee granules.
And you kept that early tension up so well for so long - I found myself speculating, as I read, as I'm sure you intended me to - who was dead? - jumping from one character to another. Bodie? No, it's him doing the telling. Cowley? No - he sent Bodie. Ah, good, a villain, not one of "our lads" - very cleverly done.
Don't know how you fitted this in with all your other commitments but I'm glad you did. Can't wait for the next!
And would you mind if I friended you, please nicely?
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Thank you! And next time we'll try to make sure that no emergencies occur in real life so you actually have time to write! Um. You might consider finishing next year's story this week, you know.... *g*
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Loved it -- thank you!
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I learnt a new linedance last week called 'One step forward' - now every time we do it I'll think of your fic!
You managed to make me feel the snow, which was clever, given the mild weather we've been having!
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And you know what the "Dead as a doornail" comment in the first lines brought immediately to mind? Old Marley. Which isn't a bad parallel for the cold Doyle's feeling inside and out.
And Bodie does a terrific job of warming him up, and helping him adjust his perspective. I like the way you use the flowers to illustrate the shifting attitudes. Doyle first looks at them and thinks they're stupid. Bodie thinks they're brave and by the time the story ends, Doyle's come around to Bodie's view.
Very nice! Thank you!
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